Faith Adeline

A world of chaos, wit, and creativity.

Sore Back
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For some odd, insane reason, my back has decided to hate me (: It's so fuckin' sore! I don't know from what. Oy. But, I'm not letting it take away from the excitement of my day. I got Fight Club on DVD and a book of poems from one of my favorite poets-Rumi. It's amazing (: Yes, it's the little things that excite me.

Speaking of excitement, thanks to everyone who has friended me from fictionpress! Honestly, the fact that you guys moved to livejournal with me, just so you could see my writings, pretty much could make me cry. Honestly. It's the nicest thing like...ever. Big hugs to each of you.

Let's see what else I can update on...hmm...my sister is now fourteen. It's crazy. I really can't believe it. Like, blah. I feel old XD haha.

I turned in an application at Kohls, hopfully I'll hear from them sooonnnnn.

What else? Hmm...

I'm almost done with a short story! Woot. I just want to be done with it, though (at the moment). I'm so sick of writing it. Hahah. It's called Escaped. Ooo, ahhhh. XD

Here's a little tidbit:

It was dark. Lotti tossed and turned, her eyes glancing at the red numbers on the digital clock. Five in the morning...another night spent plagued with nightmares and insomnia. Kris lay beside her, breathing quietly, his skin warm as it brushed against hers.

Her eyes fluttered, sleep drawing in slowly. Then, a crash sounded, jerking her awake. She sat up straight, her heart pounding. The sound of falling glass echoing in her ears. "Kris," she whispered.

He didn't move.

"Kris," she tried again, shaking him.

"What?" he asked groggily, his eyes opening. Licking his lips, he sat up. "What's wrong?"

"I heard something."

He was used to her waking him up, her dreams almost more than he could handle at times. "Babe, I'm sure it was nothing. Go back to sleep."

"It wasn't 'nothing,' Kris! Will you just go check it out? Please?"

He got up, pulling jogging pants up over his boxers. Bending over, he pressed a kiss to her temple. "Fine. Stay here."

She nodded, watching him leave. She heard him acknowledge Frankie in the hallway, who'd heard the noise also. The curtains ruffled, a cold breeze gliding into the room. Lotti crossed her arms, shivering. She peeked outside, watched as the treetops swayed.

Silence was broken by a shout: "Jesus Christ!"

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And that's all you get for now XD hahaha. I evil. (:

Hope everyone is doing good!

Until later,

--Faith

Plagerism Rant
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All right, so, a friend of mine on FP has been plagerised. A couple, actually. They're amazingly good writers, and I really can't believe it's happened to them. It's horrible! Because of all the recent plagerism, I'm setting up to take my major work down also. Which sucks. I'm not closing the account completely, I'm going to keep reading the stories and authors I'm following. But, I will no longer be posting my major works on there. Just to be on the safe side.

It's really sad that people feel the need to do that. When other folks say it's flattering to be plagerised, I seriously wanna kick their ass. I mean, are you kidding me? I should be flattered that someone stole my work and claimed it as their own? Work that I worked my ass off to write? I don't think so.

How fuckin' pathetic do you  need to be to even think of doing that? It really makes me sick. Stupid people.

So, yeah. There's my little rant.

And let me tell you, if you're even thinking about plagerising, take a seriously hard look at yourself in the mirror, and then slap yourself. Cause it's the stupidiest thing you could do, and the most degrading (to the original author).

--Faith

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Time For Two
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So, I had a semi-good day. I had a funeral to go to with my mom. Her friend's mom died, so it was sad. I felt bad ): But, afterwards, we went out to eat (me and my mom) at Red Robin...so that was fun XD What was hilarious was that my mom was like, "I wanna try something new," so she ordered fish, only when the waitress came out, she had the wrong fish (my mom had ordered it wrong, dork). So they brought out the right fish burger and my mom was like...ew! She didn't like it, so she ended up getting her usual chicken burger. It was just...hilarious.

My sister was with my dad and my other sis was on a field trip all day, so it was just some chill time between us. Then we went to Kohl's and I got an application. Woot on that. Then-n-n we went to the dollar store and I got a cheap cd (obviously) of cafe grooves XD hehe. Love it! 

Other than that, I haven't been up to much. Hangin' out  with Kels tomorrow, which is always fun.

All right, I'm gonna go. Here's a poem. Enjoy!

--Faith

Who Needs Oxygen When You Breathe Literature

I can survive with
only a pen and paper;
(my personal drug)

with a trunk full of stories
and fingers to write them down.


Shake The Glitter Off Your Clothes
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I had a good day today (even though I was a walking zombie the whole time). I got a Janis Joplin cd and the American Psycho movie XD Woot. Christian Bale. Rawr.

I've got a funeral to go to Saturday. A friend of my mom's mom died, so we're going for her. I feel really bad ): 

I don't really have anything else to talk about, so enjoy a piece of writing XD I did it for a contest thing on d/a, though I can't enter it 'cause I'm one of the judges, haha.  It was writtenbackwards, so the end is actually the beginning, and the beginning is the end (:  hehe. Hope you like!

Hope )

Surrounded (or spiraling)
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Oo, haven't updated in a while. XD oops. Saturday was my sister's birthday, so that was nice. She missed my dad and was crying for a bit, but otherwise than that I think it was an all right day. I wrote her a fairytale as a gift XD I've no clue what to do for my other sister, whose birthday is on June 6th. Oy. I'm thinking something with turtles, cause she's obsessed with those damn animals.

Other than that, I haven't been up to much. Hung out with a friend, which was fun! We watched a version of Jane Eyre because she just finished the book and I'd already read it XD So, yeah, that was fun. I'm hanging out with another friend on Thursday, which I'm uber excited about cause I haven't seen her in foreverrr.

So, I've been contemplating it for a while, and finally did it. I contacted the friend I got into a fight with. She hasn't written me back, and there's a good chance she might now, but you know what? At least I tried, right? 

Right.

I've almost completed the 100 themes challenge on d/a! Woot. I haven't been working on my novel only because I've been working on like...a series of short stories. Le sigh! Hopefully I'll get some of them finished soon. Keep your fingers crossed! One is fun, so far all the diologue is in French XD I don't know if I'm going to do it all in French, though. It's a tough decision. I'm thinking I'll make one of them English so I can incorporate some English in there.

Anyways, that's about it (: I'll post another writing tomorrow or something.

Until Later.

--Faith

Circus
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Because I don't feel like ranting XD I had a good day, hope you guys did too!

--Faith

Circus

Our relationship is about as chaotic as a circus. You play the ring leader and I'm the daring tight-rope walked (always tip-toeing between right and wrong). My world is full of sparkling colors and "never before seen wonders"; one adventure bleeding into the next.

At times I find myself wishing I was the psychic palm reader so I could see the future of you and me. As it is, you lead me and I follow, one foot in front of the other on the thin wire separating me from romance and death.

Sometimes you make me want to stick my head into the lion's mouth, your cruel words and sneering smile enough to drive me mad.

I see my world through kaleidoscope eyes, a vision of magic and darkness blending into one.

With your top hat of gold and your smile of (tarnished) silver, you drag me under murky waters. Your nails dig into me as you kiss me violently, splitting my lip open with your teeth. I don't know what to do with you, but I know if you left I wouldn't be able to breathe.

(I need you to lead the way.)

You tell me I'm beautiful and I believe you, because the words sound so pretty flowing from your mouth. (Pretty little lies.)

We're about as chaotic as a circus, but I'll always buy tickets to our show, because I love you.
 

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(In)Justice Served
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So, this is gonna be a pretty serious journal post. I get the The Week in the mail, which is a news magazine. Very good, I highly recommend it. I was flipping through, looking for articles I could talk about on my youtube page, when I came across an article on rape.

Here's the deal, there are almost 13,000 rape kits alone in Los Angelos County that haven't been touched. Over 400 of them are at least 10 years old...

Am I the only one who sees how fuckin' wrong that is?

Thirteen thousand...what are these people waiting for? I understand it costs a lot to test a rape kit, but do they not get how important that is to victims? When you're violated like that, when that piece is taken from you and you're used in a way that's horribly despicable, wouldn't you want the person who did that to you to pay for his crime? To at least know the government cares enough to fuckin' process the kit? 

Instead of putting aside money on useless fuckin' things that lazy ass people don't even need, why don't they put it towards getting every rape kit tested? Why don't they put it towards getting those people behind bars where they belong?

Am I the only one who think this is inexcusable?

Sure, maybe I'm naive to think that every rape kit would be tested and processed and every rapist would be put in jail. But...isn't that the way it should be?

They could be stopping people from raping more women, but they're not.

Bah, I just go so pissed at that. I think it's unfair, and something should be done right away. If I were a victim, I would want to know who did that to me, and I would want justice.

What's to say all those women still waiting for answers doesn't want the same thing? Does anyone care about them? Anyone at all?

In other news, my mom loved her mother's day gifts. My aunt bought her a ring from us girls. It's beautiful. Tazanite. Very pretty.

Other than that, I really have nothing else to write. Save for, I hope all your guys' mothers had a good day (:

So, yeah. Sorry I get so...political sometimes. I'm very opinionated on some things, as y'all can tell.

That's just the way I am. XD.

Until later.

--Faith


Emergency Room Blues
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So, I had a pretty interesting day. My dad came to pick up my sisters at like 12 to spend the day with them. I woke up a short time later, my mom and I just did stuff around the house. Well, at around...six o'clock, we get a call from my sister. She fell in the sand and popped her knee out of socket, can't move. Because of my dad's m.s, he can't help her, so they're stuck there.

So my mom jumps in the shower cause she's been cleaning all day, I get ready, we call my aunt to go see if she can find them and maybe help my sister up cause she's freezing (it was cold out today, and she had been in the lake so she was wet). We leave, we're on the way, my  mom gets into this mini road rage with some douche. I tell her to stop,  she still flips them off. We get every red light, of course, on our way downtown.

Once we finally get there, my sister is just fuckin' shivering all over. My dad is off balance on the sand, it's a mess.

We somehow get her in the car, with her clinging to me for dear life, and drive to the hospital. Once there, her knee is popped back in place, and all is well. She's got a brace right now, cause we're not sure why it popped out of place, and it's still sorta sprained. She's also got crutches.

So, yeah, that was my adventure of the day. Haha. Afterwards I bought pizza for us XD haha.

One of the nurses was fuckin' funny. He cracked me up. And one of them had a nice ass XD His name was Scott. I was like, hello-o-o-o. Rawr. Hahah.

Sigh. Good times.

Other than that, I started a new book about a German soldier who fought in WWII in Russia. S'good so far. He was a good writer. A

All right, with that, I bid you all adieu. I have to write XD

Until later.

--Faith
 


Words Won't Tear Us Apart
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Hola. So, I know what you're all thinking. You want to be some bigwig writer, and yet we haven't seem a damn thing!

That's cause I post it all (mostly) on my deviantart.. But-t-t-t I figured I'd throw some things out here, too. Cause I can. Woot. I've got some things I want to rant about, but that'll come tomorrow. On with the writing!


Words Won't Tear Us Apart



"What do you want?" you ask, your hand warm in mine.

I smile and say, "I want to fly away with you. Dive into the sea and kiss your salty lips, the weight of the water pressing us closer together. I want to combine your heart with mine and become one with you. I want to write music expressing my adoration for you, your fingers strumming at your guitar as I sing." I pause, looking down at our linked hands. "I want you completely. Every part of you, even the parts that are broken and tarnished."

You whisper, "I don't deserve you."

I turn my attention to your beautiful brown eyes, standing on my tip-toes so I can press a kiss to your lips. "You more than deserve me. I love you. Every inch-every particle-of you."

"What about the people who'll try to tear us apart?"

"Haven't you heard that rhyme? Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. That's us. We can take anything as long as we're together."

You kiss me back, squeezing my hand. "You're amazing, you know that?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I try. Now, tell me what you want."

You smile, your eyes shining. Pressing your lips to my ear, you say, "I want to feel your skin on mine."

I blush. "Yeah?"

You nod your head. "I want to wake up to your face, the sun shining through the windows illuminating you with warm light. I want to be your one and only."

"I am your one and only. Forever."

"Forever."






 


Petition Your Ass Off
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I am very happy (:  Just in a great mood. It's awesome. haha. That might be my amazing grogg talking, but I don't care.

Let's see...what do I want to talk about first.

I know! You all should immediately go sign this petition to make May 22nd Harvey Milk day (that day is his birthday) Not only was he one of the first openly gay men to get into office, he was an inspiration to a lot of people. If you haven't seen the movie Milk with the amazing Sean Penn, you  might not know a lot about him. But, he really just was a great guy, with a great message to just be proud of who you are.

He was murdered because he was gay, which is...so sad. Horrible. Anyways, sign this peitition and make May 22nd Harvey Milk day in Cali. I don't live in Cali, personaly, but I know people who do, who are also really urging for this to happen. Umm, yeah, here's the link:

www.eqca.org/harveymilkday

go and sign it now. Right now. I'll wait. (:

Umm, nothing much happened today. I wrote a couple poems, read some of my book, decided an outline for the poetry book I'd like to self-publish.

Yeah, that's right, I plan to self-publish a book of poetry! Cheer with me! I'm uber excited. Because I don't have the money right now, I'm just working on the format, how I want things to look. It's pretty damn awesome. I'll probably either use Lulu or AuthorHouse. I'm pumped for that.
I got my mother's day gift all planned out, practically finished. It's amazing. I can't go into detail now because my mom is walking around and I don't want her to see anything XD hahah. But, yeah, I'm pretty much in love with it XD.

Yeah, that's about it. Nothing else worth mentioning. That I can think of.

So sign the petition, cheer for me, and have a nice night (:

--Faith


Music Makes The World Go 'Round
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Hola, all. I'm just getting ready to watch American Idol with my mom (she just got home from work) so this isn't gonna be an uber long post. Not that any of mine are uber long. Anyways! Didn't do much today, just vegged. It was boring. I'm boring XD haha.

I did, however, sign onto deviant art today and find that I had 161 messages. Yeah. I was like..."OMG" hahaha. It was all really nice stuff.

I love that Slash was the mentor on Idol week. So funny. BTW, in case you didn't know, I am a Kris and Adam fan. Woot and woot. Rawr.

Damn, she started it. Umm, let's see...

Check out Linda Draper, I just downloaded her and she's really good. Go check her out. And that's about it.  haha.

Oh, and if you haven't heard any Guns 'N' Roses, which would be very, very sad, go buy their cd Appetite for Destruction right now. It's their best, and everyone should own it.

Go buy it.  Now.

--Faith


Murder and Mayhem
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Writing murder stories is so fun XD haha. Does that make me strange? I thinks it does. I'm just finishing up this short story about a crazy, mental hospital escapee. Bwahaha. Who goes on a killing spree, of course.

Like Michael, you say? No, nothing like Michael XD. (If you don't know what that means, you should be ashamed of yourself.)

Of course, I haven't actually killed anyone yet, save for one. I can't wait to get to that.  Bwahaha. I'm thinking organ spillage and-d-d castration. Fun, non

Yes, I'm aware I watch too many gore movies, thanks.

In other (not so disturbing) news, I think I found a good site to send a couple poems to. It looks awesome, and I'm hoping I'll get some moola (: Hahaha.

I've found a couple, actually. I just need to make sure the others are crediable.

I didn't do much today, spent some time with my mom before she went to work. Then I babysat. How exciting. I'm thinking I might ask her to ride up to Racine with me tomorrow. I've actually got money, and there's a couple things I could stand to get. No books, though. I've got enough. I have to keep reminding myself of that XD haha.

Right now I'm reading a book about a girl who dropped everything to like, live with this guy in France XD She barely knew him, too. I guess it's a good thing he wasn't some pyscho serial killer XD haha. It's a good story though. But I'm biased, cause I love France.

All right, I've got some characters to kill.

Until later,

--Faith




Writer's Block: End of the World as We Know It
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Robert Frost speculated about the world ending in fire or in ice. Which do you think is likely to end us all: meteorite, global warming, nuclear weapons, zombies, or the superflu?


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Love the poem. IMO I think we're all just gonna fuckin' nuke ourselves. 'Cause humans are stupid and think they can bomb anything (: But the Zombies thing might be cool. I'd totally get to learn how to use a shotgun. Bwahaha.

But, yeah. I think we're just gonna kill each other.

Which is a depressing thought but...yeah.

Sorry, guys, had to answer this one XD

--Faith

Publishing Poetry
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Hola. I am up to nada, unless you count trying to catch up on my fictionpress updates as something. Deviant art has pretty much taken over my life-e-e-e. It's amazing (: If you don't know what it is, shame on you. Shame, shame, shame! haha.

My sister was in the ER today. She's got what I had: a cyst on her right ovary. Hers is small, and we're hoping it'll dissolve. Keep your fingers crossed!

Umm, hmm. Probably gonna post another youtube vid in a couple days. Don't know what I'll talk about. Swine flu-u-u-u-u, ah-h-h-h-h. (:

Heheh. Don't mind me.

Watching Peach on blogtv, she's pretty damn awesome. (She's a youtuber, haha). I...figured I'd inform you all of this.

So, basically, I'm thinking of self-publishing a poetry book when I get enough money. I think it would be awesome. I'm gonna see if anyone on my d/a would think about buying one XD haha. I want to know I'll have like...at least five people buying it.  Hahah.

I've got so many fuckin' poems I like though...I have no clue how I'd catergorize them, what I'd put them under. Takes time.

I'll probably use lulu for it. They seem to be the best, I know quite a few people who've used lulu and have liked it. So, yup (:

Whatcha think? Good idea, bad idea?

Let me know!
 

--Faith



Dexter Delicious
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I am so freaking tired, so this is gonna be a short blog containing mostly "OH MY GOD I ADORE DEXTER HE IS SO HOT RAWR I LOVE MICHAEL HALL" screams (:

I just got done watching the first epi of Dexter and let me tell you, it's amazing. Not only is M.H. amazingly good looking, but he's amazing at the part. It's funny, it's creepy, it's got blood (which I adore), and it's just a fuckin' ride. And that's only the first epi.

I'm seriously considering buying the first season and just fuckin' like...watching Dexter all damn day long.  Hahaha.

If you haven't, check it out. You're seriously missing out.

Umm, got Melody Gardot's new cd. It's amazing. She's amazing, check her out.

People are being rediculous about the swine flu, in my opinion. I mean the media is just hyping it up and it's bullshit. I have a strong feeling they want to just scare us to death. I mean, yeah, it's scary, but we don't need the media screaming at us telling us we're all gonna die either.  Blah.

What else do I have to say...hmm..

Love Adam on A.I. He's amazing, he's hot, he's gay (but that's okay, I still want him in my pants), and I think he should win (: 

I gave up reading this one book, because it pretty much didn't hold my attention. Now I'm reading about France. Yay France! Vive le France! Oui! haha.

I've written 68 poems in the course of a month and a half. Be jealous.

Ummm, yeah that's about it. I need sleep.

More shameless plugins, reviews, and utter chaos to come. Right now, though, it's bed time.

Until later,

--Faith
 



Decisions, decisions
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Hola. I found out yesterday that I got accepted into the college I applied for. So I'm excited XD. I definitely needed my year off, but I'm ready to go back to school. I've already got my email account and everything all signed up and ready to go XD hahaha.

In other news, I got like five books today XD. One is a poetry book, one is about the creative process, one is about myths and legends of Japan, one is a short story collection by the author of Life Of Pi, and the other is just a regular book. What does this mean? It means I have a shitload of books to read. Oy.

I also posted another youtube vid last night. They're fun to make, but I sound like such a dork. Of course...I am a dork, so...there's really no getting around that. XD.

Let's see...so, recently, a friend and I had a falling out. And lately, I've really been missing her. Like...with the college thing and just basic life stresses, I really just wanna fuckin' call her. But I can't, because we're not friends anymore.

She hasn't tried to contact me, so I really don't know if I want to try and contact her...it's sorta like setting yourself up to get hurt.  Because, it may be killing me, but she may be having the time of her life. So...I'm fucked. I'm confused and just...blah. All depressed like, in a sense.

It's getting to be nice here. It was like...around 70-80 degrees by me today. It was nice. But it's really humid in my house. Icky. It's supposed to rain all day tomorrow (or today, seeing as how it's after midnight). But, that's all right. I love rain XD.

'Kay, I'm gonna go get to reading. Until later.

--Faith

Random Dreams
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So...not much has been going on. Went down to the lake today with my mom and took some pictures. I got some great shots (: hehe. It was  fun, especially because it was beautiful out.

Although for the rest of the day I was itching to swim. Gah, I love the water. It's so peaceful and calming, with that edge of danger to it that I find intoxicating. That probably sounds strange, but I don't care (: 

Been writing, as always. Haven't had a chance to hang out with anyone yet. Which sucks. But at least my sisters are back in school. Yay! Summer is gonna kill me. Oy. I can feel a headache coming on already.

Other than that, I've been hanging in there.

Because I'm odd, I dreamt of the dude from Dexter (playing the character of Dexter) a couple nights ago, so now I like...want to buy the seasons and watch them. He was pretty awesome in my dream XD It was so random! I woke up and was like, dude where did that come from?

Then I said, "Man, he's hot."

Is anyone else amazingly excited about Supernatural tomorrow? I am. A new brother? They can't do this to me! Dean...let me hold you.

Yum.

All right, I'm gonna go.

Until later.

--Faith

Religion Post
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This is what I wrote on my last blog about my religious views:

Why are we only allowed to pick one religion to blindly follow? Who are we to say our religion is the one that’s correct. And how do we know that? What makes Catholicism more special than Hinduism? Who are we to judge? Why can’t we believe certain aspects of different religions and apply them to our everyday life in order to better ourselves-to become a better person?

If someone came up to me on the streets and asked me what religion I was, or what religion I believed in, I wouldn’t be able to answer. Well, I would, but it would get a tad long winded.

I believe in God, but not the god most people see him as. (Yeah, that’s not confusing at all.) I believe God is all the good in the world. Every good person, every good deed, no matter race, color, or religion-that is God. God is such a confining term for it, but it’s what I was raised with, so it’s the easiest name for me to use.

In short, I believe God is good. All good. God is all the Yaweh’s and every other god there is, all that good, combined. If that makes sense. It sounds better in my head, as most of my other inner ramblings do.

I also believe Jesus died for our sins. I believe others may have done the same thing, but Jesus is the main squeeze. Why? I couldn’t really tell you.

I don’t believe everything in the Bible. I believe the Bible was written by men, and isn’t something you should completely set your faith on. Sure, some of the stories are nice and teach a good lesson-those I can learn from and apply to life. But smiting a village of sinners? Flooding the world? No thanks. Those just make God seem like a hypocritical asshole. (Why yes, I can feel my feet burning, thank you.) "Yes, I give you free will. But you’re not doing what I want you to do, so I smite you." No.

I really hate all the downgrading women get in a lot of religions. And no, it’s not because I’m a girl myself and like to shout, "Girl power!" from the top of my lungs. Okay, being a girl helps fuel the fire, but it’s not the only reason I hate that. We give life, so can’t we get a little credit? I mean, you try squeezing out a watermelon, and then go to church and learn how much better men are than you. I don’t think so. This is why I like Wicca and Pagan beliefs. Men and Women are equal to them, they both are devoted to and included.

A simple rundown of my other core beliefs would be: reverence to nature and the belief of the three fold rule (what comes around goes around, bitch) which are mostly based of off Pagan and Wiccan beliefs (but could very well be parts of other religions, I'm not a theologist). I also believe in reincarnation (no, not the whole, "you failed at life so now you’re a dung beetle"). I mean, sometimes I think we don’t do what we’re supposed to, so we come back. That’s a basic Hindu/Buddist belief.

I believe in a lot more, but to name them all, well…we would be here all day.

I guess what I’m trying to get at, is that as long as you believe in the good, and do good deeds-should it really matter what religion you are? We’re all going to go to our own "heaven" (I believe), others may just not call it heaven. Some call it the Summarland, some call it...who knows. It’s all different, but yet, we’re all the same in the end.

I don’t think that because someone is gay, or because they believe in different things, or because they make mistakes, they’re going to hell. I don’t judge, because I don’t want to be judged. So, why should other people judge?

Look in the mirror people, we’re all just flesh and bones-all the same.

Just in case y'all were wondering. Which I doubt you were (: Haha.

Haven't been up to much. Just trying to find someone to hang out with this weekend. Le sigh. Gonna get back to writing!

--Faith

Never Forget
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So, I just got done watching this vid on the holocaust, and I'm depressed now. It was about a British man (I taped it from the BBC) who fought in the war and was caught by German soldiers and taken to an Auschwitz POW camp. Really sad. It ended with him saying that while he was there, someone asked him to watch for birds with him, and they couldn't find any. There were no birds. And now, he went back, and there are just all sorts of birds around the old camps, flittering about. I think that really struck a cord with me. Just how powerful that is.

I could literally start crying. I wasn't alive, obviously. I didn't know anyone personally affected by the holocaust or war...I have no reason to get so upset over it. But, I do. I hear these stories...I think of how all the survivors will die soon, and those stories will vanish, and I just feel so amazingly sad. It was such a horrible time in our history, so much death and destruction and pain...

Who will remember? Who will tell these stories? Teachers? In my classes, the kids used to make fun of how the person talking spoke. They'd laugh at something they said. They were laughing at someone who survived one of most horrific things done to man. Laughing. That is how immature people are nowadays. How unaware, how ignorant. These are the people we're supposed to expect to tell these stories? To get the point across on how horrible this was? To teach our children? These are the people? 

What have we come to, really? Sometimes, I really lose my faith in humanity.

Sorry for the ultra depressing blog. Had to get that out there. Hopefully my next one will be a bit more cheery.

Yeah, cause I'm cheery.

This is what I ask of any person who reads this. There probably aren't that many, if anyone. Pick up a book about a survivor in the library. Read their words. And the next time you want to complain about having a bad day, remember how many bad days they had.

Yours will pale in comparison. As would mine.

--Faith

Insanity Strikes
[info]faith_adeline
Oh my god, my mother gives me such a fuckin' headache. I feel like I'm slowly going fucking insane. She's not fucking here at night, she has NO CLUE how my sisters act, yet oh, they'll listen to you! Blah blah blah. And then, "Oh, you better stop yelling at me." Hi, I'm not yelling, I'm fucking frustrated, which means my voice is slightly higher. But yelling? I'm not. You want me to yell, I can fucking yell.

GAH. I seriously just need peace and quiet right now. I'm so gonna just...pull out my fucking hair. NONE of my friends can hang out, so I'm stuck at the fucking house ALL WEEK with my mother and sisters, who are off of school.

They drive me CRAZY.

OY VEY.

Sigh. I feel a little better. Ish. I have coffee though. That'll make everything run smoother.

--Faith

PS-I hate people.

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